I am only 23, Acccording to last years psyche evaluation report I am a schizoid, avoidant, melancholic, dependant, negativistic, masochistic, borderline, and paranoiac person with aspergers syndrome,adhd, ptsd, ocd, Reynaud's phenomenon, bipolar disorder, and major depressive disorder with moderate recurrence no psychotic features, and I dont know everything about what happened to me.....but what i do know is bad enough.... The reason why i was adopted was because I was temporarily paralyzed on my right side at the age of 4 cause of how much my real parents beat me, they caused me to have a stroke.... I don't know them. I wasn't just temporarily paralyzed I also had a broken arm and a broken collarbone. And if I didn't dig food out of dumpsters id get beat again.......

Had to go through eleven years of therapy and counseling......and lost the only father I ever knew (my adoptive one) three years ago, and When my adoptive dad died I didn't cry or anything until halfway through the service when i had a complete breakdown and got cold and was shaking and crying in the middle of august.......i even had to put a sweatshirt on and mom had to give me medicine to calm me down.....

I almost died in a car accident back in January of last year cause my old job was bouncing checks left and right causing my anxiety to skyrocket to the point where I had an anxiety attack while driving back to the shop to get it all figured out.........and apparently my biological mother used to hold my head underwater if I soiled my pants in the first 3 years of my life.......while in the adoption process both me and my brother couldn't even visit our biological mother cause every time we did we would have a strong emotional reaction where we would start vomiting uncontrollably...... Idk what to do, my biological mother and sister reached out to me and I am getting two different stories as to what actually happened. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.